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To be or NOT to be BLACK...

I am a black person. I am black and from Africa. I have a skewed sense of time. I struggle to make appointments, execute plans to the letter and basically come across as an informed homo sapien. I am dark in complexion with small calfs, large nose and thick fleshy lips.

I have several short comings and I think of these a lot. The collapsed walls of the world due to internet have brought my shortcomings very sharply to the fore. My sense of inadequacy in the modern world is truly heightened as I feel unworthy of a place amongst men of worth.

It pains me to go through my days with these morbid thoughts. So I have decided that I shall not be known by the description black. I am a person. Yes. That is what I am. I want to merge into the morass of humanity and become nondescript, an earthling.

I am going to be a regular citizen. Nod when required etc. I will conform and merge into the background nor foreground. I am a person. Just like you and any other.

Yet something worries me. I have this sneaking suspicion that some other person somewhere, somehow is sniggering at me. This other person is very condescending to my face yet giggles to smithereens behind my back.

I have a suspicion that I do not quite measure to this person and my achievements are somewhat superficial compared to theirs. I am not sure how this is so yet I feel it so acutely at times it seems like a generation divides us.

Luckily this happens when I am hungry. It must be what they call hunger pains. Otherwise, normally, averagely, I am an everyday go getter running on flapping pages of a book. So see, I am a person and nothing much to worry about.
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